People pleaser struck back...

no, it is not as serious as it sounds.

My ex-classmate since Standard 1 is now back on holiday in Malaysia and I am supposed to meet him before he flies off on Sunday. Because of the many dinners lined up at my end, and his family commitments with in-laws, he has only Dec 23 to 27 to himself. Then I was told he won't be free on Friday because of golf in Malacca, only left with today. It would mean I have to travel to KL and back just to meet him. The fact that he is a frequent traveller between Australia and Malaysia, makes it a bit more routine than someone I have not met for umpteen years. Moreover, able to go to Malacca but cannot come up to Batu Gajah? There is Clearwater Sanctuary Golf Resort which he has yet to try out.

The problem with people living outside KL is that there will be many times they have to visit KL for business or pleasure or because of children's education. Some people living in KL would feel that they meet friends too often because of its central location. So one has to strike a balance too, as to how often can become a pain to friends or especially their spouse!

As I was explaining to my KL friend why I am not making the trip, he sounded annoyed, 'so you are not coming...' to end the conversation. I can imagine his disappointment because there was a long lapse of time between our jamming activities but he should have known I live outside KL. Why not they make it to my place where I have a studio too? I have my other reasons like my dizzy spells and knee problem acting up, but that would sound more like excuses. Like they say, 'the spirit is willing but the flesh...' if I remember the quote well. I have yet to visit my surviving sister (excluding brothers) who in spite of her large family of her own would very much like me to visit her. Sigh. She still manages her floral business near Sg. Buloh so did not have time for visiting others.

My eldest sister who was still alive when I moved to BG for more than 10 years, did not step foot into my house because her children were too busy with their business. She joined tours to visit Ipoh and had lunch in Tg. Tualang but did not inform me. Anyway, it would not be possible for her to break off to meet me but I could have met her in Tg. Tualang if given notice of her trip.

Anyway, due to my mother's influence, on matters of 'pantang' I am apprehensive if I have any doubts about making a trip. It is a quick decision of 'yes' or 'no' and not changing minds and plans. I have to be at peace with myself too even over such simple matter!