Peace of mind: fighting a losing battle

I am en route to becoming a hermit, hopefully with peace of mind.

A few years ago, I shelved my under-used 728i mainly to save on the road tax, and put at bay any repair costs which included its battery as a result of being under-used. Temporary peace of mind, just the space which takes up the other porch.

I de-registered my own company which put a stop to the need to prepare simple accounts and have it audited annually, while having to pay retainer for company secretary.

I did not seek re-election as branch chairman of a political party, and found relief in not having to attend any activities. One of the reasons had to do with my blogging which I would prefer to have the freedom of expression. Though I have not encountered any complaints, my own self-censorship makes it stifling in that at the back of my mind, there is this question, 'in terms of party hierarchy, who am I to make comments about national politics?' The fact that I was little known meant little publicity, so I could write as I wish within certain limits. But people like Jeff Ooi, who was a well known blogger who turned politician, has to be so careful with what he says. I bet he missed his previous freedom in writing or speaking. Now, he has to remind himself that he is an MP, Chief of Staff in Penang's Chief Minister's administration, and so on.

Anyway, while I cut down on commitments, my other half in her gung-ho mood, got more and more involved in business activities as if life for her began at 60! So I am now in a lose-lose situation of having to be on standby, without peace of mind because if anything happens to her, I will have to sort her things out. Believe me, she makes life complicated in whatever she does while I am an expert in finding simple solutions. For example, the smallholdings that she co-owns, her partners do not even know the exact location! While our son is too busy to even look after 400 sq. ft. of garden, how is he expected to look after smallholdings in obscure places?

On the other hand, if I go first, I go in peace leaving everybody with peace of mind, because living up to my acronym, I come with nothing and I go with nothing to bother others.
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